It is Not Easy

Until you’ve found pain, you won’t reach the cure
Until you’ve given up life, you won’t unite with
the supreme soul
Until you’ve found fire inside yourself, like the Friend,
You won’t reach the spring of life.

Rumi

 

I am awake to the pain that has entered and overtaken my body. This is so important. I realize that my body is saying stop.
So what next?

Removing Clutter, that is the motto, is not easy. Saying NO and perhaps disappointing others is not easy. Missing out on some action which you might enjoy, despite extra work load, is not easy. But who said that this journey was going to be easy?

Again I imagine taking those small steps to reach the summit. Unfortunately I am not sure what my summit is.

My Dear Friend and Philosopher Tim Hyde, called me once an “Interlopper”. He described it as being someone who always wants to be else where. Upon arriving to the next destination, I become impatient to move on again. But this was over 10 years ago, and today I am really tired. Never reaching, never attaining.

So I am starting to listen to those around me, to listen to my body and I realize that yes I need to find that inner peace. A peace that will allow me to bloom into that fabulous flower that I talk about.

So I have taken some actions which move me forward. I have finally carried out the round table which was the project that allowed me to participate in the Stratgies for leadership course at IMD. A course that has started my journey on enlightenment.

Actually, there was a 2 day Alumni Retreat last week organised by the past Presidents. As being voted President of my class, I thought it important to be there. Again I spent the most two fabulous days, sharing, loving, crying and enjoying the pleasure of other women who are each single one in their own amazing journeys.

One of them was Cicely Brown, and during the two days I shared a lot with her, she was such fun and who’s future project I could relate too. She also shared her past journey in Nigeria, which gave me great pleasure to read, click to see her blog. I wish her great strength to move forward on her journey. She shared this joke, which I thought was fun to share. (Comes from Facebook, I apologize do not know the source).

 

My immediate objective is to give myself 1 hour per day for ME.
This is not an easy task, as I said, but I am trying to respect it. Today I spent it tidying up the garden and enjoying the fresh air and snow flakes. Tomorrow is a new day. And I hope to start some yoga classes, when I feel I am capable of committing to a schedule.

I now need to work on other parts of this site, the Me, my project….
No pressure at my rhythm.

 

 

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